one more day…

On August 14, 2009 by alinaki

i’m caught in the middle. between my world and the adults’ world. can’t find my place, can’t go back, can’t go forward. the adults’ world is too serious, too hard for me. it’s the “responsible” world. the “i always know where i put things” world…the “i cannot mistake” world…the “i don’t waste time on unimportant things”… the “always behave nicely in public” world…the “never use bad words in public…or in private” world…the “everything is so fucking serious” world

… definitely not my world…

but then, which is my world? where do i fit? will i move on, become one of “them”? forget about the stupid things i do? get serious? i hope not…i see them on the streets, they are the serious or angry or sad people…never smiling at a stupid thought or a nice memory as they walk alone on he street…they are the always concerned people…always so preoccupied of tomorrow, that they forget to live today…and then, where is the fun??

me, hmm… my job demands that i am serious…i have no excuses now. i’ve taken more responsability on my shoulders that i can carry now…but the job, is just a job…the rest of the time i can be myself….almost :(

in the end, we are always ourselves…the only limits we obey are the ones we set. what we say, the way we behave, we decide it. so why we complain about “not being able to be ourselves”?…that including me? cause in the end, not behaving like we usually do under certain circumstances is our decision… “i cannot be myself with you”…what a cliche…ok…well…i’d better go back to photos…i’m starting to be too “myself” today…

life is a playground

4 Responses to “one more day…”

  • be you…be yourself…be alinaki:D :D

  • ovi

    potzi fi copil si la 50 de ani… potzi fi matur la 5 ani…
    fii asa… incat sa nu depui efort sa fii ce esti… ci doar sa fii… ca si cum nu ai putea altfel sa fii… decat ce esti… asa sa fii… indiferent de numar de ani… de lumea inconjuratoare… fii doar tu… si restul sa prinda contur in jurul tau…

  • alinaki

    :) da… (deea si ovi)…asta si fac…sunt eu insami, fara efort…efortul vine in momentele cand nu trebuie sa fiu eu insami…:)

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